1000 sleeping pills,
are gonna take away all my ills.
I'll sleep but never wake.
That way I'll never make the same mistakes.

So, why?
Why do I want you back.
No, I
no I shouldn't want you back.
Am I?
Just afraid to be alone.

You came into my life.
Made me a better man.
You took my heart out of my chest.
And then you gave it back again.
You were supposed to be my wife.
That was supposedly the plan.
You said that I was the best for you.
Then you changed your mind again.

You lied and cheated on me.
Gave me and s.t.d.
You aborted our baby.
Then you left me.

So, 1000 sleeping pills
are gonna take away all my ills.
I'll sleep but never wake.
That way I'll never make the same mistakes.

I made mistakes as big as yours.
Made you feel like a beaten child again.
I opened up old sores
and then you saw me walking out the door.

By the time that I came back,
I found that it was too late.
You'd healed and moved on.
Together never again that is our fate.

No I,
no I'm never really alone.


•••


Be the Change

Raise your voice.
Sing aloud.
Or sink down low.

You and I
will never die
as long as we try.

But, you won't lead.
You won't follow.
Let us do it both.

Desire leads to conception of life.
Also destruction.
Choose which one.


•••


Breed Like Roaches

We know Mankind's giant mind will destroy us all.
Einstein theory in application leads to our fall.

We breed like roaches and then move on.
Colonize Mars and breed like roaches.
Destroy Mars and then move on to Jupiter.
Colonize Jupiter and breed like roaches.

We breed like roaches and then move on.
Colonize Saturn. And we move on.

Scurrying, we move on.

We breed like roaches and then move on.
Colonize Uranus and we move on
to Neptune.
We move on.
To our last hope, Pluto.

I Still remember my home.

We breed like roaches and then move on.
Colonize the Universe and we move on
to what's next.
I remember my home.
Now where will we go?


•••


Consequence

When the world around you grows to be enormous,
is there a difference between this and shrinking?
Whether I should fly or the landscape should change,
I'll be alright.
I noticed this
is only a dream.
I'll be okay in just a silly little dream.
I recently met a girl more like a man,
who had an alarm clock for a voice.
My arms are far too heavy to move,
now.
I'll be okay. I won't make a scene.
It's the world I'm told still boldly holds
consequence.
I'm in it now.
Though this is a dream.
I'll be okay, once I maintain
this is only a dream.

Consequence.
Only a Dream.

Consciousness.


•••


Country Gravy

Swallow
mercury.
Let the temperature rise;
population decrease.
Follow.
Follow me.
Swallow
what I feed to thee. Won't you kneel for me
and swallow?

Swallow
artillery.
With your mouth like a gun;
threatening
diplomacy.
Genocide,
apartheid,
simply a finders fee.
Holocaust,
slavery,
simply a finders fee.
Won't you kneel for me
and swallow?


•••


Curse of the Taco Truck

Gimme one more year and just one more day.
And I'll have it figured out.
I'll get my life straight.
Gimme one more year and just one more day.
And I'll be the man you want.
I'll be the man you want me to be.

I'll be the man that you see for me.
I'll be the man you want me to be.

I'll be the man in the seafoam green.
I'll be the man you want me to be.

Grab your gun and shoot me.

Reach for the stars.
Vodka.
Reach for the stars.
Marijuana.
I've given you, given you
everything

that I have.
All that I am.
Clear my way.
Clear this path for me.
All that I have.
All that I am.
Clear my mind so that I may see.
Clear this way.
Clear this path for me.
Grab your gun
and shoot me.


•••


The Emblem

This shirt has a hole.
No good anymore.
Dispose of it like me.

This heart hasn't hurt,
this bad in a while.
Cut out the emblem.

Now, I'm sure you don't know what that means.
But, it's not really important anymore.
And it's not as bad as it seems.
Walking out the door, you're liberated.
And you're free.
Didn't cost you anything.
Just don't you fall asleep.
And now you dream.

You're all alone.
 And now it seems
 I've been here before.
 Think this was my home.
 Had a couch over here,
 T.V. over there,
and this is where, this is where I sleep.
 This is where I dream.
 Just don't you fall asleep.
 Now you dream.

Still you crumble to the ground,
you fall upon your knees.


•••


For Now

Every little thing
that I needed from you,
I already got it.

And every little thing
that I dedicated to you,
I re-thought.
You moved on.

We got over it all and we found new love to grow upon.

I rethought.
You moved on.
We got over it all and we found new love to grow upon.
So why am I?

Sitting on the bus, sitting by the phone,
waiting for you to call.
And I know
you won't call.
Sitting on the bus, sitting by the phone.
Waiting for you to call.
And I know, my love,
I won't breathe again.

Sitting on the bus, sitting by the phone,
never gonna call, never gonna leave, never gonna live,
never gonna love, never gonna breath,
never gonna see again.
Not no more.


•••


Had Matter

Molecules fly free form,
doing what they wish to do.
I know I'm not the same.

Consciousness of the universe in human form,
don't let me out.
Don't let me down from here.

And all of your safety
is a notion in vain.
You're taking it lightly.
Wasn't it you who was saying?


•••


In the Waking

I don't need your sympathy in my life.
I don't need a reason to bleed just for spite.
No need at all

to breath appalled and flee from the fight.
You dance when I can't see
and you'll sing when I can't breathe.
No need to fall in love in a rush,
breasts all blushed,
teeth being hushed and gnashed in lust.

Your love is a wreck and its a must.
Remove those lips that hush.
Let me through in a rush.

Everything I had to offer,
I've given it all away.
As for me and my following deeds,
what can I say?
I was better then
than I am today.

You're everything that I need.


•••

Long Over Due

I know it's hard.
I know it ain't easy.
I know it seems,
all that we are,
all that we will be,
all that we've seen,

doesn't compare;
doesn't complete.
Don't you dare spare
the rod and spoil me,
but save my family.

So, I raise my drink.
All because I could not be
or I wouldn't be,
not me.
It's not me.
Not me.

All that we want,
all that we should be,
all that we've deemed
this hellish life
pummels us daily.
Abusive routines,

they won't save us.
They can't complete.
Tear your sutures.
Let your heart bleed.
All because of me.

So, I raise my drink.
All because I could not be,
or I wouldn't be,
not me.
It's not me.
Not me.

•••


Malnutrition

I give you all that I have to give.
I'm searching and remembering
all the reasons that I have to live.
And, I wonder how my baby girl would get along
without her dear old Dad around to hold
and sit and sing her songs.

Don't you know
  it's so easy to let go.
  So very hard to hold on.
  Don't you,
don't you know.

It's so easy to let go.
So very hard to hold on.
It's so easy to let go.
Don't let go.

Take it slow, just give it time to breathe.
Pack a case just in case you have to leave again.
Take a moment to consider all
the damage that will be done.
And, it will be done.
Realize what lies in the very end.
No one has won.
No one.


•••


Maneater by Hall & Oates

She'll only come out at night.
The lean and hungry type.
Nothing is new,
I've seen her here before.
Watching and waiting.
She's sitting with you,
but her eyes are on the door.

So many have paid to see
what you think you're getting for free.
The woman is wild,
a she cat tamed by the purr of a jaguar.
Money's the matter.
If you're in it for love
you ain't gonna get too far.

Oh, here she comes.
Watch out boy, she'll chew you up.
Oh, here she comes.
She's a maneater.

I wouldn't if I were you.
I know what she can do.
She's deadly, man,
and she can really rip your world apart.
Mind over matter.
The beauty is there,
but a beast is in the heart.


•••


Never Seen These Walls

It took me just about five years to get back to
where I was five years ago.
I've lost a lot of friends these past few years,
but I never thought it would be my brother.
Now I know

people are expendable,
untrustable,
no glass half full,
no glass at all.
I already fell.
Through depths of hell, I saw it all
and it was my fault.
That's no excuse for you to fall.
And by the way, I've loved you always.
I've loved you always.

You were the faceless.
You can't erase this.
Sounds so poetic, but don't forget it
was all just a drawing on a pad.
And in our past.
It was in our past.

But, now our paths have something in it.
Oh, just forget it.
Why do I even try at all.
Go ahead and fall.
Go ahead and fall.

And I'll be waiting and retaining
your place at the end of this wall.
Go ahead and fall.
Let us just forget it all.
Let us just forget it.
Let us just.
Let us
forget it all.

I am just a wretch
stewing in my stench.
It falls through my little clutch.
I ain't a prophet as such.


•••


Queen of Olympia

Did you ever feel a change
coming in this world?
You need a better way to be.
But it's not likely.
If you're like me.

Did you ever feel your face
slipping from its life,
as you're watching different shapes emerge?
And it occurs to you
how strange life is.
There are different ways to be.
But they're not likely.
If you're like me.
Don't think you're like me.

You throw yourself down
convinced of a horror.
Convinced of a brutal crime
and a primal cry
from both sides of an uncrossable line.

You throw life down
on both sides of that uncrossable line.

Queen of Olympia.


•••


Shopping Cart

I'm an author,
artist,
rock star and I'm schlepping carts
in the parking lot of a super market,
feeling unused.
Not necessarily abused.
Just unused.

And I sing aloud to the crowds of clouds.
The automobiles are my audience on wheels.
When they cheer for me I hear a symphony
of horns and alarms.
Horns and alarms.

Now is there
a place for me
somewhere?
Somewhere in between,
Socialist and Capital means?


•••


Snake Oil Ministry

I've been fooled.
I won't get fooled again.
I hope I don't get fooled again.
I don't want to get fooled again.

I know there's a way
and I know there's a course
that I could take
to save my life
and join you there.
I want to join you there.

See you never break.
See you never fake.
Would you save me
if I save myself?
In saving myself
did I help someone else?
Did I save you?
Did I help you?


•••


South of the Cement Ship

The firmament
with a war below,
in summary,
produced a biting cold.
And those who lost;
thrown in through the world
to pay a bitter cost
through a uteran birth.

The firmament
and the biting cold.

If I ask you don't be afraid to go.
Through the firmament
and the biting cold.
I'll show you something even demons don't know.
The firmament
and the biting cold.

Is life not foreign to I?
When I'm left alone
to my own device?

You know that there's a soft side.
A more pleasant way to be.
You know we walk a fine line
for all that we've seen.
And those we've lost
along the way
pay a bitter cost.
Born to decay.


•••


You Over Me

So,
say it ain't so.
Say you won't go from me.
Say that you'll never leave
me lone.
Son,
now say this ain't all for me.
You say you ain't over me.
Say that you'll never leave,
say that you'll never leave... me.

And everything I do,
swear I do it all for you.
It's all for you.
And all the mistakes I make,
swear that I'm trying to
eradicate.

So,
now say this ain't all for me.
You said you weren't over me.
Say that you'll never leave,
say that you'll never be,

cruel like me.
Or a fool like me.
Or fooled like me.
A fool like me.

So,
now say this ain't all for me.
You said you weren't over me.
Say that you'll never leave,
say that you'll always be

1,2,3.
You over me.
The way it should be.
Oh, with you over me.
You over me.

So,
low.
Lone.
Alone.